Are you stuck? I recently wondered this myself as I created goals for the new year. My top priority was, and always will be, my family, but at the same time, with the pressures of life and what you cannot control, I felt these beginning to weigh heavilly on my soul. I realized I am more than just a mother and a wife. I have my own sense of self and if that is not embraced, it certainly can affect my personal happiness, and then impact my role as a mother and a wife.
The above picture really spoke to me. It made me stop and make me wonder 3 things:
- Does what I do for a living make me happy? Is it something that I love and feel fullfillment from?
- How can I make something that I enjoy that also benefits my overall health a top priority?
- What is something creative, that I enjoy and feel I do well at, that I can do more regularly, and see results from?
Without going into many details, my job is basically to fix what is broken for my clients using both my knowledge of the business and the tools that it provides and my ability to communicate. I remember being in highschool and people would joke about “Mini counsellor” meetings with me. Routinely, someone would bring me a problem to get some insight on (not to fix) and/or would come to me to vent. This gave me a sense of purpose, a sense of worth, and gave me the opportunity to hone my hobby of communication. I have always loved to work on complex issues, finding a way to break them down into problem and possible solutions. The only thing that I felt that I “didn’t” like about my job, was how it pulled me away from my family. With a daily 2 hour commute and 40+ hour weeks, I realized it was time to focus on moving forward to the next step. And so with that, I have now made that my focus. I love everything about my job other than my commute/hours, and I’m working on overcoming this obstacle as well.
Oh THANK GOODNESS, for great weather. I have begun to get back outside, stretching my muscles that atrophied over the winter, and getting a good dose of Vitamin D. With the spring weather also brings on the pleathora of 5ks and other runs. Currently, I’m signed up 2 runs in the month of May – and April is all about getting geared back up. I may be slower than I was, I may need to walk more than I did, but everyday is progress that I can see, and that’s something that I love. (PS. I ran 3 x last week WHAT WHAT?)
In 2014, I joined a volunteer organizaton called Knit Wit which is an organization that knits/crochets blankets for veterans. I didn’t know how to crochet but wanted to learn and be part of this volunteer group that was sponsered by my work. And then I fell in love…
If you’ve been following my posts, you can see all the fun hats I’ve made but I’ve been working on a bigger project lately. I’m taking part in a CAL – crochet a long where when you start the project you only get 1 weeks worth of directions each week. Other than knowing it was a blanket, not much else was known. This CAL is called Sophie’s Universe.
I am currently working on Part 3 – and here is my current progress:
And with this, 2015 has been going swimmingly, but even more important, whenever I feel like I’m not good enough, I stop and look back at everything I’m doing and all the people I connect with (my husband, children, friends) and it helps squash those senses of doubt. There’s nothing wrong with being a momma, but I am also so much more.